Man> Boy

"Maybe I wrong; she doesn't deserve that. I should change, because in the end she's the only one that's down for me!"

Changed

You caught me at the right time some would say

But at that time I needed to figure out how I was gonna get to those better days

When I was with you I was still boy and I tried acting like the man

I tried to lead the way and I forgot to grab your hand

I left you behind, I let you down, and I let you fall

My ego, my pride, wrapped in my world and that's all

That's all that mattered 

I drove you away, when I really needed you to stay

You never turned your back or walked away

Despite it all

The pain, the tears, the nights when I should of put you first

Damn it hurts, I know I'm the worst

Thinking of how I can make it right

The lonely nights made me realize I'm not right

I'm a boy no man

If I can't get it right myself how I can I get it right with you

Thinking about the time I hurt you, didn't put you first, and this time I thought I love you

The cut digs deep, it's lodged in my heart, you've always been my light in the dark

And my days are dark but in the distance I see you shining

Begging me to do right by you

I want to be my best not only for me but for you

I'm sorry; I'm sorry for everything you've been thru

I'm praying just praying for a chance to grab your hand and show you that I'm a changed man

Thankful

So they asked me what I'm thankful for..

Of course family and friends come to mind

Or things I take for granted from time to time

I can't imagine what would life be like without running water or a place to lay my head at night

I'm thankful for that

Or perhaps the things I look past like my past

All the hardships trails and tribulations I've been thru

People leaving when you need them most, all of sudden their ghost

Disappeared

The Failures in life and of course the heartbreaks

Be ashamed without a dollar to my name

I was knocked down 

But I'm never going back.

I'm thankful for it all

The struggle

I found light when my world was dark

All because of my heart

No negativity no giving up 

Made the best of my situation now things are looking up

I'm thankful for that

The chance at life everyday, with the blessing or life I wouldn't be here being thankful today.

In the Moment: "Today"

I woke feeling different today.

Every other day I wake up feeling some type of way.

Bother by things from past days, but it's in the past it shouldn't matter anyways.

Now on to the better days,

There only going to come if I change my ways.

Be more grateful, count my blessings, and seize the day.

That's the motto everyday.

You only get one chance at life and that's today,

Because you aren't promised tomorrow and you can't change yesterday.

Do all you can with all that you have today!

"The Story About Her"

As I stand here these tears are going to dry on their own

I'm glad your true colors were shown, now to face the facts and move on

I just want to say thank you

Taught me a thing or two and something's are too good to be true

Never wasted time only lessons learned 

Life deals a bad hand sometimes this happened to be my turn

I'll be strong, the body dies but the spirit lives on

And spirit wishes the best for you

Not wishing any bad onto you

Your heartbreaks and failures do nothing for me at all

I already had my fall, I already thought I had lost it all, I never thought it get better at all

But I'm back on me feet I'm standing again, I'm stronger than I've ever been

If you never broke me down, I would of never found out who I am

So thank you for helping me create the person I am

Fragile "The Story About Her"

I wrote you this poem but you'll never read it.

I wrote you a song but you'll never hear me sing it.

I planned you trips of places you probably won't visit.

I got you a ring but it was never fitted.

I gave you my time all you did was waste it.

I gave you my heart all you did was split it.

I gave you my life and you didn't know how cope with it.

I gave you my love and obliviously you abused it.

Empty Words "The Story About Her"

My world is upside down now that you're gone,

Things aren't the same when I look at my phone.

Replays in my head of the night that you left,

I got many words that are left unsaid.

Honestly how can this be?

Me and you baby were an unbreakable team; felt like nothing could come in between,

I was your king and you were my queen,

We had dreams.. of us being together now it means nothing like the words on this letter.

See you promised me forever,

And they say we should never say never,

If you never said forever things might of actually been better!

What was all of it for? For you I'd go to war 

I do anything to weather the storm

But for what?

Got me here questioning, I know I wasn't perfect I have a lot to fix,

For you to just run out I can't comprehend this shit.

Now I'm non existent to you.. A complete stranger. 

Contemplating to pick of the phone and give you one last call,

then I remember you taught me words don't mean shit at all!

Actions do..

Broken "The Story About Her"

Her face buried in the pillow asking, "how could this be?"

"Why does everyone have to take advantage of me?"

"Did I do something wrong for this to happen to me?"

It's not something she can believe 

See her heart is good it gets passed around like loose change, 

that's what happens when you caught up in the game

Tears rolling slowing down her face

She's wondering why things must be this way

Thinking about her past of all those bad men, 

The "what could of beens"

Now she guarded, 

to protect her from being broken hearted 

Walls may never come down, another heart may never come in 

A part of it never thought she love me

Timming is key although she's perfect 

It takes a lot to do what she did, open up after bad experiences

That's only way to find out if dreams come true or if he's just another "too good to be true"

Tested the game.. She stayed in love when she had the oppurtunity to walk away

Now the tides have changed

She's done a lot for the wrong ones

now here I am, I'm the one

Take my love and believe in us

It's not easy for her to forget about how the past played out

But this is a new love.. Let's see how this one plays out!

Crutch "The Story about Her"

Sitting besides you as the world spins slow
Clinching your hand I plan to never let go
As the world is weights down on her shoulders 
I just pull her closer and hold her
I whisper everything will be alright
She buries her head in my chest then hugs me tight
Go ahead and let it out
It's okay to shout
But she remains so calm although you see frustration in her eyes
But she doesn't cry
She's poised and collected
Something never expected 
Everything is a blur
That's why I'm here to comfort her
I'm your punching bag I say 
She replies I just need you here to stay
I seem a bit shocked 
I stare at her, she's my rock 
No matter how hard things may be
I'll never leave your side baby
Sometimes our strongest person needs to be loved too 
I promise that's what I'll do
we are in this together
Never to make each other feel lesser, only better
And that's life we'll share together

I am

I am 
As look back on life, I always ask if would I do things twice?
I always ask where my hearts at..
I know I'm not always the good guy 
Some of us have to be those people you were warned about 
I know I broke a few hearts, let someone down,  
But that doesn't change who I am..
I am what I am
I am everything I see
I am everything I does

The bigger picture

Be thankful and appreciative for everything and everyone you have in life! Things may not be great all the time, but sometimes we must take a step back and see the bigger picture. See how blessed we really are!

A positive thought a day can take you a very very long way! Be thankful for this journey you're currently on! Live, Laugh, and Love!

Matthew A. Arrant 

What is truly ahead?

"Our eyes are placed in front because it's more important to look ahead then look back."

Keep your eyes on the prize! Look forward to better days but better days only come if you act upon them. Set yourself up to succeed in life. Do you ask yourself daily how you can improve? How you can make a difference today for your future? Don't knock yourself or your hustle. Everything you do is a learning mechanism. Even if you fail or it's not the outcome you desire it's a lesson. Today, if you're just going to work; do you have a purpose for going? Can what you learn help you grow at work or outside of work? Can the tools you acquired help get you a promotion or possibly a better job? Today of you're going to school are you paying attention? Are you working towards that degree? Why you there? Today if you're doing nothing, why not start something? That's what everything we do, really dissect it and understand the meaning and purposes behind it! If you're comfortable where you're at then that's okay, it's gonna take a time and place where we're gonna have to decide to act. Make each day a stepping stone for a better tomorrow.

Matthew A. Arrant

Everything Happens For A Reason

As I look back in life,
When I thought all was wrong I find it was all right.
In my hardest times,
That's when I found my strengths to proceed in life.

Matthew A. Aaron

Play Ball

Walking through the gates tickets in my hand
On the way to my seats in the stands
Lights shining so big and bright
Getting to witness the greatest stars in the game tonight
The smell of peanuts and hot dog surface in the air
Cheering on our favorite team is what we fans share 
The stadium is filled with my teams threads
All ages showing support from the socks on their feet to the caps on their heads 
A roar of cheers echos as they take the field
Everyone chanting and cheering for them must give them the chills 
Hand over my heart as the national anthem is being singed
Anticipation as everyone is ready to cheer for the team
Everyone on their feet as the ump shouts, "Play Ball"
I gasp for a breathe as the first pitch takes off

Matthew A. Arrant

Today

Today another day another opportunity to do whatever you please, 
Carpe Diem it's your day to seize.
Today don't carry yesterday's troubles into today,
You can't go back and fix it anyway.
Today give yourself a clean slate and be on your way,
Be the light in the world of black and grey .
Today is the day to get right,
Tomorrow isn't promised and yesterday is out of sight.
All you have is TODAY!

Matthew A. Arrant

Misunderstood

MISUNDERSTOOD
Dark clouds surface, rain drops fall..
Look around no one in sight at all.
Is it bcuz my face hangs low?
As I stroll the streets so slow..
My mind lingers..
Why beat myself up?
voices in my head shut up.
This isn't me.. but its not what you see.
big smile? Or should we call it fake
Be you for christ sake
Tired of battling my self,
Can't be good for my health..
Telling myself I'm going crazy
same battle I battle daily 
but this storm shall pass, it always does
Can't let a bad days kill your buzz
That's life.. a mixture of bad & good 
But don't let the bad outweigh the good
Otherwise you might always be misunderstood..

Matthew A. Arrant

Emotions

The results of our actions

We all get that moment where we wish for a second we can go back and change things. For example not do what we did, not say what we said, and so on. The thing is it happened, now we must correct ourselves so we dont do those things again if we ever get in that situation for a second time. There is a lesson in it. The lesson is we know what not to do. Sometimes we let our emotions get the best of us; we are human, we are emotional beings so it happens. Our actions can be hurtful towards someone and our selves. But.. because we act off emotions doesnt mean thats who we are. Dont beat yourself up about it. Admit your faults accept the consequence and carry on to be better than your current state. If you carry around that negative emotion you feel, youll only end up repeating and hurting more people and damaging yourself while at it. We are not perfect, dont try to be. Be you! In this society many people dont know how to be themselves. They also dont know how to appreciate honesty. They will forget about all the honest things you do for them because of 1 negative action. Its emotions.. we thrive off how we feel. It were happy were easy going, if were upset or frustraded we might snap. That doesnt change our character, its just a time and a place and our state of feeling at the moment. What Im getting at is its okay to have different emotions. Just deal with them the best way possible. Try to thrive off being happy as much as possible. Being in a negative emotion can be quite devasting. Remember the old wifes tale; "never make a decision while youre mad!" That saying couldnt be any more true!

Matthew A. Arrant 

Attitude Of Gratitude

Attitude of Gratitude
grat·i·tude

noun

the quality of being thankful; readiness to show appreciation for and to return kindness.

Have a attitude of gratitude! Lets be appreciative of what we have while we are here. Its important we shape our lives in this form. We are ultimately what we comsume, especially when it comes to sharing energy and emotions. If are constantly being negative we ourselves will be negative. I understand it's quite hard being positive in such a negative society but it's capable. Here are 3 ways to help be more grateful. The more we practice being grateful the faster it will be come a habit that's then able to be shared from one soul to another! 

1. Count your blessings 
2. 1 Compliment your day
3. "What can I learn approach" 

Counting your blessings; simply wake up and be thankful for everything we have. The fact we have fresh water, the opportunity to be alive, we have shelter. We get so caught up in stuff that doesn't have the magnitude for the stuff we take for granted. There are people in this world who don't have what we have; the less fortune. They are grateful to just wake up, some thrive to better their situation, and for those who are ill just to spend another moment with family. It's all perspectives. Its how we see things and that's the purpose of gratitude change the way we see situations. 
Compliments through out the day; weather it's someone or something compliment it. The more you express the positive sides to life the more it will be an outcome! Look in the mirror and compliment yourself of what you like; or compliment the day, your family, give an effort! Make it a daily task and it will become a habit. You'll just notice the difference in your life, everyday weather it's raining or the sun shining bright you'll look out the window and say, "Hey it's a beautiful day!" Like anything in life the more you practice the better the results.
What Can I Learn Approach; I was taught there is no such thing as "bad days" its all about how we see it. When things dont go in ones favor simply ask yourself, "what can I learn from this?" There is always a message in the mess. Different situations teach you different things. The purpose is to change your perspective. This is going to help by going into an unfavorable situation with a sense positivity. Which will fall back into being grateful as our perspective is now changed and we have learned and are now glad we experienced this! Attitude of gratitude, that's the motto, share it, it's a beautiful thing for a beautiful life!

Matthew A. Arrant

Intro

Hello,
I'm introducing myself to blog spot. My name is Matt Arrant, I'm 23 years old, from Sunny Southern California. Some of my interest are music, sports, writing, and being in front of the camera. Many people wonder why I'm doing this; I just my purpose to connect with people through words. I would say I'm a very positive person and I feel like I'm quite the motivator. This is just a new challenge for me! I would be sharing my work, poems, post, videos, etc. Hope you all give feedback as it will help me thrive to be better! The more voices the better! Looking forward to this! Lets journey together!